My BIRTHDAY!!! Alert the News… Call the Media… 12/31/2010
At the end of 2009, I desperately wanted 2010 to come, citing that it had to be a better year than before however, it didn’t seem much different. Everything I hoped for seemed like it didn’t prevail just because I was praying about it.
So quite honestly, I stopped praying and living under this faith cloud that promised me things that I did not see manifest. I may not say positive affirmations as much as I used to, or at church before everybody else, but I still believe.
I believe that if 2011 is my year it’ll be my year whether I call the news and alert them that the storm has passed, or if I just chill and marvel at the outcome.
One thing is certain none of the tribulation will make any sense if God doesn’t manifest himself in my affairs. He will. I am ready.
So good people, Happy Birthday to ME, out with the old and in with the new. May the oldness of our sorrow lay down and the manifestation of new creation stand up, stand out, and be set apart in all of us.
Every year, as a ritualistic kind of conversation to seek wisdom of my loved ones, I ask them what they have learned in the past year. I figure that this question is appropriate because my birthday is the last day of the year.
I usually don’t know the answer until the last-minute, and this has reigned true today. What I have personally learned is that although God in all of his infinite supernaturality exists, there is a practicality to this life that I underestimated. I have always seen myself invincibly because God is well, GOD and I serve him, and he is my friend so…I have everything.
I may have everything in a spiritual realm but the truth is, there are things that we go through that we don’t fully understand. Who wants to hear that you go through hell in order to build character.
Many people don’t go to church or serve God because they would rather live under the haze of knowing just enough not to be responsible for their actions on a spiritual level.
I have learned the following things this year:
I could not put this as eloquent as he did, but I think the last couple of paragraphs alluded to this being my truth.
2- Love is an action word. I desire true love, and in order to wish for a healthy relationship I have to practice by being in healthy relationships. I have cut off friends and family who I find to be emotionally abusive, draining or unavailable who, do not show in their actions that they love me.
3- Patience and Long-suffering. The two fruits that I promised myself I would NEVER pray for because I did not want to have to learn them by experience. I have always been the strong-willed one. Why did I need to go through to learn some things? Don’t blame it on God! Some things I put myself through lacking wisdom and understanding thinking that it was a blessing and it wasn’t. Now, I know how to sift through the beautification of opportunities and make important decisions with wisdom. I will NEVER have to learn this crap again. I’m not going to tell you that the last few years of learning have been fun or worth it, or that I would not take it back. I am just not ready to do that, but I am happy that I have learned critical information that has helped me to be even more of a commodity of wisdom and connection; strength.
In short, take a few minutes and reflect on this year. This about yourself, not others. Ask God what you were taught this year. At least once you identify it, you’ll never have to learn it again.
Now, Call the Media… tell somebody… IT’S MY BIRTHDAYYYYY!
I love you…please be safe 🙂
**Please leave a comment and tell me what you have learned this year! 🙂
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- Mary TV Daily Reflection 12/30/2011 (deaconjohnspace.wordpress.com)