I give myself away
Russell talks a lot about giving. As Tony and Cynthia Brazelton have taught for years, that we should “Live by our giving.” It is a strange teaching because people are used to living by their income.
I read almost 35 pages of the book while waiting, and Russell blew me away with his illustration of giving based on 50 cent’s rise to riches. In short, he mentioned that 50 cent gave himself to the world, and the world could not live without him. Reading 50’s testimony, written by Russ was enough to blow me away but it was what he said beyond the giving that really took me to tears. I want to expound upon giving myself away just for a moment.
It seems that this has been my theme throughout my entire homelessness. It is hard to give when you feel that you have nothing. And it is hard to give when you have given and still lost everything. My favorite worship song of the moment is, “I give myself away” by William McDowell who had me laying face down in the floor of the church two years ago when he came for a concert in honor of my pastor’s birthday. He talked about how we are in time but God is not. He gave some detailed, spiritual revelation that had me snotting-and-carrying-on. I really had the ugly face that night.
As I mentioned, this has been a theme: Giving. I don’t know what to give. I know my gifts and the diversity of them, to the extent that God has shared with me but I do not understand what I am to give away.
I am a great massage therapist, according to the admiration of my clients. I am an entrepreneur, fantastic at business consulting which is why I had given those services away for a long time. I have given away free massages, and now my writing. I have just started identifying myself as a writer. I guess I’m forced to since I just penned a book of memoir.
Starting a blog has been delayed due to my stubbornness, and fear that people won’t read it, and that I did not want to be plagiarized. I finally gave in as you can read, and I decided to give myself away to writing and allow others in to read it. True to my character, my writing depicts a very real, and honest alignment of startling truths, such as my homelessness.
“When you’re honest, the world will run after you.”
That is exactly what Russell Simmons says in Super Rich! He was talking about 50 cents’ rap lyrics but it reminded me of Ted Williams, nicknamed the “Golden Voice.” Ted Williams is the homeless guy that everyone is talking about that has the amazing radio voice. I started a Facebook page: Praying for Ted Williams because I feel that the media is taking an opportunity to destroy a man who desires deliverance and liberty from addiction.
Let’s face it, Ted Williams could have held up a sign asking for money and declaring his homelessness. He did not have to open his mouth or share his gift, but just like what Russell Simmons is talking about in his book, Ted Williams did open his mouth. Sharing his gift has given him opportunities that he had not imagined.
Ted Williams and 50 Cent have something in common. They were both honest, and the world is running after them. And Russell says, “Like any good spiritual warrior, he (they) shared their gifts without any expectation of immediate compensation.
Super Rich has started an internal phenomenon, reconfirming things that have been revealed to me. I am wrestling with one thing however. Russell says, “GIVE IT, UNTIL THEY CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT IT.” This was one of the things that he said in his interview that captured my spiritual ear.
Well, I am not sure what I am supposed to be giving. I know it sounds funny. I know who I am, I know the gifts that God has given me, but the answer to my question remains unclear. In the height of my homelessness, no social service assistance with housing, but that is a whole other story (read some of my other blogs), and no family to turn to (read my book of memoir), I am really unsure of how to proceed in life. I have a beautiful 14-year-old that has been a trooper. She believes in me and is the only cheerleader that I will ever love.
I will continue to “Give myself away” as I know how, and I pray that the principles that I live by, and the principles discussed in Russell’s book will make me Super Rich!
Thank you for reading!
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