What I’ve Learned This Year I

Each year, the tradition is that I would come to some conclusion of the things that I’d learned that particular year. This tradition came about because my birthday is December 31st. And, my name is Ressurrection which essentially means the end of something, and the beginning of something new.

In past years, I’ve learned about myself, and people. I’ve been able to identify truths that weren’t so hidden but let’s just say that going through certain tribulation brought revelation.

I have documented many of my revelations in my memoir www.identitycrisisbook.com

One thing I remember learning is that my siblings do not love me. If love is an action word I definitely do not support the idea that family will always love you. This is such a harsh thing to read for some people but there is truth in it, or else there would be less abuse, and foster children in the world. Not to say that this is an exhaustive reason.

In other years, I’ve learned a thing or two about peers, what friends are what they are not.  I have learned about myself as well. I learned that some parts of me won’t change because those things make me authentic. I have so many things that I’ve been privileged to learn over the years.

In 2011, I’ve come to terms with my family and their loveless passion for me. This is much more difficult than the sentence suggests. In 2010, I worked on it but in 2011, I had to take the reality by the hand and guide myself through the sadness that this exists.

I have also learned that people were right along. The love of your life, your soul mate will come when you least expect it.

I know what it feels like to experience love, and support. This year it was like God knew that something had to give. I needed a reason to keep going. I needed intimacy and I needed what he could only bring, and he did; love.

As tiring as homelessness, loss, mediocrity is, I do feel that I can go through these times because I have someone by my side who loves me.

Some may say, “You shouldn’t be in love” to that I say, “Thank goodness you ain’t GOD!”

As I think about what I’ve learned this year, I will post it. But for now, the summary of what I learned was accepting relationships as they are, in their truth without trying to add or subtract from them. As much as we want people to love us as we are, we are often less colorful with our own painting canvas.

Selah.

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